And it’s exhausting.
I have been in Minnesota for 11 or 12 days now. The night before me and my parents drove up here to move me, I was in a panic. I didn’t sleep at all. I had a lot of anxiety about whether or not I had made the right decision. To leave my hometown. To be somewhere without any family. It was especially hard because I had moved forward in a process for another job, one in Chicago, one that I probably would have even liked.
I feel like I’ve spent at least five out of the past 6 months in a state of perpetual stress. And I feel like it’s all catching up with me. I’ve been so sleepy. My lady cycle is off…
But, there is good stuff here, too.
I completed four days at my new job. It seems perfect. It’s like everything I’ve been working towards these past two years. I wasn’t crazy after all. I wasn’t selfish. I had a big goal that I had to focus on. I’m thankful for the people (my parents mostly) that realized that. I’m thankful for the people (definitely my parents) that put up with me while I pursued what was essentially a life reboot.
Give me a couple weeks to get back to writing about technical things. I need some rest.