Going to the doctor also revealed that I am way heavier than I thought. I was fairly certain I was somewhere around 140 at the most which is still a lot considering I was at 120 prior to returning to school full-time over 2 years ago. But this explains why even my emergency pants that I bought before I moved here are now getting too snug.
A lot of people at work have complained about gaining weight since starting there. It’s essentially a job where you are working at your desk from the time you get there to the time you leave. We can even order lunch through our receptionist, so we don’t have to leave. Oh, and then there is the free soda and other sugary drinks that are slowly killing us all.
However, my vitals (blood pressure, etc) are really good, so at least I am pretty healthy. I haven’t been able to get into a good routine with running and I feel like that is going to take a while. So, I will just try to continue to work towards 5-6 days of activity and hopefully, this soft food diet will get me back into the habit of not overstuffing myself…which brings up something else: I think I’m depressed, thus the food stuffing therapy technique and my inability to get out of bed until the last possible moment on work days.
I mean I do like the place where I work, but the actual job that I have is just not doing it for me. I remember feeling like I could do anything before graduating from college and now I feel like I don’t have any good ideas and that I’m just in a rut. It’s actually my unhappiness with work that had me applying to graduate school (which I start in the fall). I want to feel like a worthwhile person again which most likely will mean moving along to different (greener???) pastures once I finish school again. Looking forward to that.